Reality Takes Me Back

I wake up every morning
my pillow stained with tears
i cried myself to sleep last night
to wash away my fears

everyday i wear a smile
a mask upon my face
all these feelings and emotions
i wish i could erase

my eyes burn with the need to cry
but i continue strong
no1 knows what I'm going through
and have been all along

they think that i am happy
they think that i am glad
no1 knows the truth
the truth that i am sad

they buy into the laughter
they buy into my smile
no1 sees the truth
which I've been hiding for a while

I'm crying in the shadows
and no1 knows I'm here
no1 looks beyond my act
or the way that i appear

i need to let my feelings out
but i cant break down the wall
its like a never ending battle
so for eternity i fall

with every gasping breath i take
i want my life to end
no1 has a shoulder i can cry on
or a helping hand to lend

it's like the world is on my shoulders
like the pressures now on me
no1 knows the way I'm feeling
no1 can really see

i dream about a different life
where sadness is at lack
but soon its shattered by the truth
and reality takes me back