The Ending of My Life

Painful tears fill up my eyes
as i stare at my reflection
i hate everything about the way i look
from my weight to my complexion

as i look into my lonely eyes
i see wounds that will never heal
no one understands my pain
or the way i feel

everyday i contemplate
the ending of my life
I'm running out of tears to cry
so harder i clench the knife

Ana is always in my head
and whether i should try
the pain might then just go away
the worst i could do is die

i constantly obsess about the way i look
and how much that i weigh
every second of every hour
of every painful day

my head is constantly spinning
and i don't know what to do
the only time i was every happy
was the time i spent with you

when i was with you
my smile was real
i didn't have to pretend
about the way that i feel

you made me feel good
you liked me for me
but i know it will never
be like it used to be

the second that i lost you
the pain came right back
i came back to a world
where smiles are at lack

i keep falling and falling
so i pick back up the knife
i mean after all
its just the ending of my life