How i feel

Life sucks. always trying to live up to what everyone else thinks. for instance me. when i put something on, the first thing i say is, i wonder if people will like it. Bullshit!!! i have to stop doing that come on i need self esteem and confidence. because mine disappeared when i entered kindergarten.but the shit is its in the past i should let it go. but i just cant. i hate being talked about. i thrive to get peoples attention and acceptance. i should just accept myself for who i am. but its just too hard. i cant decide what to do. Life sucks and i just gotta deal with it.