My secret..

Staring deep into this mirror
Watching the image start to sway
As my eyes fill with burning tears
Watching the last of my dignity wash away

Pinching the skin around my waist
Disgusted with this thing I’ve become
Wishing for it all to change
Wanting this pain to just go numb

No one knows my dark secret
Of what I do when I feel this way
Knowing what I do is wrong
But this secret will forever stay

As all of my pain flows out
Down this horrid porcelain bowl
All my feelings slip away
For a moment I again feel whole

Needless to say I know I need help
But the fear inside still kills
What would they do if they only knew
Of what I do on my own will

Picturing it now of what they would say
Ashamed of what I’ve done
Never good enough even for myself
Knowing that this secret has again won

This secret is beginning to make me sick
My insides burn within
Someway somehow I’ll let it out
I cant let this take over me and win