Lifeless Tonight

Im here for some unknown reason,
That I cannot seem to find.
Seems I have brought a burden,
To ones own wonderious mind.

Everyday I scream and cry my crisom tears,
Bringing bad luck, hardended thoughts,
Always adding to someones fears.

I dont know,
But I want to go,
I cant take it anymore.

Wishing I was gone,
Singing sad songs,
Thoughs of death and gore.

Oh how nice it would be,
If I had the chance to see,
That dazziling bright light.

Id be suddenly beamed,
Into my wonderful dreamed;
Of the heaven beyond my sight.

But Im on a leash thats holding me here,
On to my so called life thats now "so dear";
To everyone around.

But the hurt gnaws at me,
They wont let me be,
Happy and unbound.

Now Im sitting here,
Im all alone,
With nothing but,
A growing moan.

The thoughts of betrayl,
Tare into my mind,
Forgetting what I used to know,
Leaving it behind.

Im beaten, broken and bruised;
All my life I have been used.
All I am are forgotten memories,
These friends of mine have forsaken me.

Now Im sitting here crying,
Im internaly dying,
And remembering what I used to be.

Im all alone,
In my broken home,
Not knowing what to do.

Just wishing now,
That I will somehow,
Find away to pull through.

I dont know what makes me stay,
I cant figure out the effing way,
The path that steers me right.

Hell is now passing over me,
Seems I have lost the "Freedom Key",
I am losing the will to fight.

Now Ive had enough,
I wont continue to bluff,
I cant live this way.

Ill pull up my sleeve,
Getting ready to leave,
But then "just a little cut" I say.

Shit, I slipped and hit the vein,
My arm now pouring bloody rain.
But no one could help this fight.

Finally I have no more fear,
Cause now Ill soon be laying here,
Lifeless Tonight.

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