Take Away

I know you have prayers waiting but I don’t know what to do
My mama said if needed answers to bow my head and pray to you
It seems like I can’t catch up for being so far behind
Because so many things, everyday swims along in my mind
I think about the future, the present, and the past
To tell you the truth, I really don’t know how long I can last
I admit…I thought about ending it all… a time or two
I had the knife in my hand but I couldn’t take it through
It hurts so badly with every breath that I take
It hurts even more, with every move that I make
I wonder can you make me numb, so I can feel no longer
Take away all my weakness, and with them make me stronger

When I look in the mirror my reflection I cannot see
I only see nothing, with eyes looking back at me
Am I invisible or maybe it’s me that is blind
Please God tell me what it is that I long to find
Take away my heart and let it beat in your hand
Take away my knees so I can no longer stand
Take away my eyes so I can no longer see
Take away my freedom, so I can no longer be free
Take away my lips so I can no longer kiss
Take away my soul, because there is nothing left to miss
Take away me so I can no longer live
Take away everything, because there’s nothing left to give
Please make me numb, so I can no feel no longer
And take away my weakness, and with them make me stronger