Playground Suicide

Sitting in the playground,
As I await for you to arrive,
I knew you'd never come,
So I bought a piece of rope,
Now I shall tie it,
On the bar above the swings,
I thought I could live my life,
But now I know I was wrong,
For you have abused me,
For to long,
Good-bye cruel world,
Is all I have to say,
For now I know there is no God,
Because I prayed and prayed,
It never got better,
God never saved the day,

Still I sit in the playground,
Watching all the kids,
I wish my life was,
Was as easy as theirs,
For they will never know what I went through,
Except for the one who sits in the corner,
Wearing a fake smile.

(This really sucks, but anyway)