Is it wrong

Is it wrong for me to hurt so much
Is it wrong for me to always cry
When others have much harder lives
Is it wrong that I just want to die

Am I cruel to cut myself again and again
Am I wrong to keep being in so much pain
As I try to kill myself lying awake in bed
To my sadness I wake up, alive again

I feel guilty, to hurt myself and my friends
And I deserve what I get from the bullies
I deserve all this pain, I deserve to cry
When they sit and they laugh at people like me

But am I wrong to feel this pain that I am given
Am I wrong to destroy myself all the time
Is it wrong that I try to kill myself
And pretend to you, that I am fine