My life as I know it

Today i had to leave school early
I didnt really want to but it wasnt my decision to make.
My mom is gone for another year,
her mistake i dont want to talk about.
Her heart has failed and now she must go into surgery.
I fear every day that i will be called down to the office and find out something that no teenager should have to hear.
My friends try to help, but only a few really do.
Some of them arent including me in things i normally would b in.
My family fighting over stupid things i no longer can stand.
Today i actually thought of ending it.
But instead i just layed there and fell into a deep sleep.
Only to be awakened by screams of childeren.
I get up and act as if nothing is wrong.
Go to school and still everyone thinks that there is nothing wrong.
My friends tell me i must be strong to be able to handle all of this.
Truth is im only strong because i had to be.
My mom is the one who taught me to be as strong as i could be.
I want to stay strong for her.
But im not sure how long i can.
For everyday no one knows but i cry and cry until i have nothing left in me.
Thats when again i fall on the couch and sleep only to wake again to my dad telling me its time to get up.
I go to school and hang out with my \"friends\" which i really only have a few of actual friends.
Im ending this now because i cant go on my life was wonderful until one day and i never knew that in one day the rest of my life could be changed , but it was....