Cristion or not?

It's easier to run
then to take this shame to the grave
no angels looked upon me
one more soul god didn't save

i don't know if i am a Cristian anymore
i told hem i was fading away
but he doesn't care
he was too busy letting my soul get played

the demons took me over
and took it all
my heart,my body,my soul
i have took my last fall

the only one there
to take my hand
was demons
but i chose to be alone while i stand

for what is right
i have only survived one night