One More Time

Things were going so good
But all of a sudden
Everything is falling
I’m realizing now
I’m not as strong
As I’d like to think

I started back up
And I don’t even remember why
Once I stopped though
I swore it was my last
But I’m wishing now
That I never said that
It’s getting so hard
It’s worse than before

Everybody’s failing
Alex never even made it
To the count of two weeks
She finally confessed
Only a few days ago
Kelly did it again
And she was clean for so long
But now the strongest of all
Has fallen with us

Zac had been so strong
He had made it so long
Saved me countless times
Even once saved my life
But he’s done it again
And my lifeline to safety
Has started to tear
And it hasn’t yet been
Even three days

I had thought about it
Only once today
Until my mom came in
And started yelling over nothing
And now I’ve been staring
At the scissors again
But I’m holding back
I’m trying so hard

I’m sick of this all
I’m sick of this crying
Every night it’s the same
And I cry myself to sleep
Why’s it so hard?
I never thought it’d be this way
I always thought I was strong
But now I’m so feeble
And I just keep thinking
I might not make it a week

I don’t think I’m going to
Make it to the number three
Already now
The scissors are back in hand
I’m crying so hard
I can’t stop shaking
And so far lately
I can’t stop this phase
Until I see blood

I can’t say what’s worse
Crying every night and feeling so helpless
Or bleeding again and feeling that pain
I don’t want to cry tonight
So maybe one more time
Won’t hurt that much
Oh, lovely scissors
Grant me one last wish
And maybe this time
I’ll put you down for good