Blood falls....

The blood that runs from wrist to arm now knowing that all Ive ever done was harm how good it would feel to know that your childhood and memories were in the sea of red...what it would be like for everyone to know their enemy was dead...pills were no way for this life to end it'd be too easy to just take a couple and kill this life that was to hard to mend... Guns id never use for they've killed to many already and the temptations to just pull the trigger and thats it gone so quick and steady....drowning would only let me feel that i am free before my blink knowing that it would be my last time for laughing, crying, or to think...Cutting off my air passage would only be torture for id die in pain and the image that my rescuer would observe only to make them insane....Jumping is another way out but the result would be a mess... GOD why cant i just be happy for once and free from all this stress....