Bittersweet Revenge

I made another mistake
I have to face another sin
I feel like such an idiot
I've let someone down again

So I sit here on my roof
Gazing out upon my town
To ponder my utter worthlessness
I'm falling further down

It's all so complicated
I think I know it all
And when I don't, I blame you
Even when it is not your fault

This time around
Revenge wasn't so sweet
Turns out, it made me feel worse
Doing to you what you did to me

I thought I should feel
How it was to hurt someone's heart
After all, you had done it to me
What would set my act apart?

But now that it's been done
I feel sick and unclean
It simply isn't who I am
I'm not the type to be mean

I guess I did mean to make you feel bad
I wanted you to see what you put me through
Through all the depression and pain
I wanted you to feel it too

But after it was over with
And your heart was set to mend
I simply couldn't understand
How you could repeatedly do that to a friend

How you did it to my soul
I simply do not know
Numerous stabs at my sanity
How could you act so low?

You say you never meant it
I didn't mean it either
But I've never left you for doing it
And suddenly, you aren't here

I am so confused
Am I, are you to blame?
Can we just truce it out?
Stop putting me to shame

I look at your mistakes
I look at my sins
I hope to God you are ok
I pray this isn't the end.

**Sorry, this sucks... I got a little off topic. I meant it to be an apology, but it got to be more of a rant... oh, well. Feelings are like that, no?**

*Car*