20 questions

Do you know how many times I've thought of the pill bottle?
How many times I've thought about swallowing them all?
How about how many times I thought about the knife sitting on the counter?
Did you know you're all thats holding me here?
What would you do if I fell away?
Why do I cry?
Do you know the answers to the questions I ask?
Do you know my reasons?
Did you know you're one of them?
Did you know I'll always love you?
No matter what you do?
Did you know I stopped eating yesterday?
And took 5 ibuprofens?
What about the bandage on my arm for a deep cut?
Do you wish for me to stop?
Did you know I'd stop if you asked?
Did you know I want to come find you?
Did you know I miss you?
Did you know your all I love?
But you don't care,
do you?