Suicide

I cried myself to sleep last night because of him,
I slit my wrist the night before because they mad fun,
I lied about the slits-I said I slipped and fell,
I have over dosed on those many drugs for the past few nights,
I think I might try it again one more time this life!
So I take about every pill I can find in the house,
I look at the pictures of that "great guy" as I sit there and start to cry.
I feel those pills start to kick in and I become drowsy and fall asleep.
I see a tall man hover over me,
is it GOD? or is it just a dream?
I open my eyes to see my mommy crying...
I'm in the hospital, they say I am Dying!
I pray in my head, God please don't do this to me!
I'm sorry I hurt myself,
I'm sorry I hurt my mommy,
>
>>
>>>
>>
>
Now I look up and I am in a dark room,
I scream WHY ARE YOU BARING ME! I'M NOT DEAD! I CANT BE!"
My mommy is crying, i try to reach for her but, i fall right threw.
I can't be dead, this is just a dream!!!.... or is it??