As you leave

Turn the lights off as you leave,
And gently close the door,
Leave me to be while I shut my eyes,
As blood slowly drips to the floor.

I remember your face the day you left,
As more tears fall from my eyes,
I cradle myself in my arms tonight,
And gently drop my disguise.

So when you lay to rest at night,
I hope I am in your dreams,
Helping every step of the way,
Making things so much easier than it seems.

Because although you turned your back on me,
I simply cannot forget,
All the good times we once shared,
That I look back on without a regret.

And even still I love you so,
I feel my heart is slowly breaking,
With voices echoing inside my head,
Which leave my body shaking.

I’m sorry I couldn't take this pain,
I just couldn't see the end,
I carefully write my suicide note,
To be the last message I send.

I’ll seal the letter with a final kiss,
And gently sign your name,
‘Dear Josh - I am so sorry honey,
I just couldn't take this again.’

You cant make me love you,
Much more than I do right now,
I’ll reach for the blade and carefully slit,
Repeating my very last vow.

It’s not your fault, really it isn’t,
I’ve been this way for years,
But this is the end, the only way,
The dry my ever falling tears.