My little secret

I don't know how to do this
I'm just going through so much
i don't know how to tell you
because your the only one i trust

so lets keep make this our deepest secret
that noone else will know
you have to make sure OK
that your feelings will not show

OK...so i shall tell you
the biggest secret Ive been trying to keep
I'm going to take my life tonight
I'm going to try to cut so deep

but if i find my daddy's gun
i will cut then after ill use that
OK, don't freak out about this
this has been held in from the past

so, it all started when...
i had my first true love
he broke my heart in two
i wanted to be above

then..i fell for another man again
which i swear i shouldn't have done
i promised my self that i wouldn't
but i my heart felt him, it won

then he left me for a problem
lets say, he's the one who missed out
on something pure and sane
but now she sits and pouts

i swear i was so good to him
i was the best woman i could be
i never cheated played games or hurt him
i wish that he would've seen

he doesn't know what i went through
how i had to sit and deal
he never would've thought
this is the way id heal

OK, now on the the bad part
don't tell my mom and dad
i told him that i loved him
but now i take that back

so now I'm going to do this
please don't try to stop me
when i float on up to heaven
i want him to start to see

see what he missed out on
and see what he had hurt
see what he had made me into
and how he left me in the dirt

OK, now I'm asking you a favor
i want you to go to him
and tell him how he hurt me
and made my light so dim

explain to him what I'm telling you
but please try not to cry
just tell him how much he hut me OK
and how i took my life

so go on, go on and tell him
ill be OK i swear
I'm finally leaving this horrible place
this life in which i bear

so i love you and thanks for this
thanks for being here for me
this all wouldn't have happened huh?
if his love was true for me...