Behind the....

What am I doing?
Why can't they see?
Behind the myth and fiction
Lies the solitary me.

Behind the laughs and giggles
Lies the most disturbing thing of all
You had once told me,
You'd save me from that dreadful fall.

Secrets being kept
Burying them deep inside of me
Behind the cute facade
Lies the one i could never be.

Behind the smiles
Lies all the tears
And no one nowhere realizes
So i tell my walls my deepest fears

You can't tell anyone
Because not even you know
Because the "happy" feelings hide
The suicidal feelings that never show

Little bits of info
Hidden in plain sight
Realizing this though
Could cause some major fright

All you need to know
Is where the hell to look
Not found in a secret place
Found in my ways, my words, my books

Mini-reminders
Show when i first cut
You never realized
My lifes in such a rut

But here i am
Coming through to you
And you don't even know it
Someone has to listen to me, but who?

Behind my loving gaze
Lies someone who hates life
Scars shown on my arms
Shows a bit of my strife

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