Never-ending Tears

My eyes drift to the floor
"What's wrong with me?" I say
I scream at myself for no reason
Knowing I can't live this way

With all this stuff that's going on
I'm losing all my dreams
It breaks me down more and more each day
It's not as easy as it seems

For one thing I possess too much anger
And patience, I have so much less
I know my life is not okay
It's one big, giant mess

I hide behind a broken smile
The world I do not tell
About all that's on my mind
Of this living Hell

It seems almost impossible
How good I can pretend
When deep inside my heart
The falling tears, they never end

Because no one can see the person
That I always used to be
No one can see that deep inside
I can never really be me

No one can see my family
All the troubles, hurts, and lies
No one can see the innocence
Hidden deep beneath my eyes

I cry myself to sleep sometimes
Praying for better times to come along
But I'm so emotionally exhausted
And sick and tired of trying to be strong

If someone doesn't help me
Feel like the old me - wonderful and alive
I'll sink into never-ending tears
And maybe I will die