I want so badly to live that fairy tale life
Where everything ends happily ever after
But instead I’m living in a nightmare
Where my husband is also my captor
I can’t hold back the tears anymore
I just can’t stand the sight I see
I turn away from the mirror
And the person I have slowly come to be
Never would I have thought
That I would be this meek
With lank brown hair framing my face
And little hallows in my cheek
My hands twist nervously in my lap
And I let out an anxious, fake laugh
I’m living in a world of darkness
Where my heart has been ripped in half
Deep purple rings circle my eyes
Which are lifeless and dead
I wish that I were too
That someone would tie a rope ‘round my head
Anything would be better
Than this hell I’m living through
Even death would be a blessing
If it meant I could escape and start anew
But until it comes, I will remain here
By my husbands side
In vain hope that maybe someday
The pain he causes me will reside
I pray that someday he will love me
Like he did when we first met
I pray that someday he will realized
What he has done, and feel great regret
Maybe then we can live in harmony
Like all families should
We can leave this distressing world we live in
Where nothing is bright or good
I know I’m deceiving myself
That nothing will ever change
But I feel as though happiness
Is just out of my range
If only I could grasp it
I would hold onto it tight
I would cherish it forever
Morning, noon, and night
I dream of a bright future
Though it only brings me pain
I wish for our happily ever after
Though it’s driving me insane
