Secret

Everyone holds a secret that lies deep inside
I have this huge secret, this secret is my life

There are two sides to the coin, one that no one ever sees
It’s a dark shameful side that is hidden inside of me

I’ve found that it’s easy to fool the entire world
With my simple little act everyone thinks I’m the perfect little girl

My secret is that I’m dying from a disease most don’t know
It eats at you day by day making your death painful and slow

Some of you may ask what caused this condition
Years of neglect, a broken home, all the mindless tradition

Living in two societies with no sense of who you are
You hate yourself and no understands, your soul as black as tar

Having a mom who never seemed to stay
Everyday it haunts you, from your past you can’t escape

Living with a family where there’s too many chiefs
Only one little Indian to deal with all the grief

Crying alone because emotions are a sin
Children are supposed to be happy, here the web of lies beings

Feeling the emptiness that seems to consume your soul
A part of you has been lost; you’ll never be whole

Going through life having to wear a mask
Hide who you truly are so you won’t be more of an outcast

Knowing that you have no “friends” that truly understand
Most are too blind to see that you need a helping hand

Taking pill after pill to numb away the pain
A few hours of numbness are what keep you sane

Cutting deep into your wrist as a form of reprieve
So many angry cuts, who knows why you’re alive

Going days and days without the taste of food
Starving yourself so some pounds you’ll lose

Kneeling on the floor exhausted and pale
As always after purging it’s time for the scale

These are the causes for my terrible condition
Tell me what you would do if you were put in my position

Everyday it gets worse, takes more of my might
But as always I hide it, to everyone’s delight

This is my little secret that most will never know
Please don’t tell anyone, lets get back to the show

By. Luz Ramirez

* Well I think that this poem is self explanatory but if you have any questions feel free to ask. I hope you all like it, it took a lot of me to write it*