I See...

I look into the mirror
I see lines under my eyes
and cuts on my arms

I don't see the old me.
The athletic
or smart me

but i do see
a darker
and an uglier me.

i cant see my
bright green eyes anymore
or my beautiful white teeth

But in their places i see
red drowsy eyes
and stained yellow teeth

i can never see
myself in the sunshine
wearing a swim suite or t-shirt on

But instead i see
myself inside my house
with dark colored clothes on that are baggy

i don't see me
but i do see me
just not the me i want to be.