My happy ending...with suicide

Sitting here
again
day after day
just waiting
waiting for something to happen
just watching my life
while it wastes away

i wanna do something
anything i can find,
but there nothing to do
and no one to come

was i supposed to do this?
is this supposed to be my life?
sorrow fills my expressionless face
as i look at myself in a mirror

why am i like this?
whats wrong with me?
why can't i stand seeing myself?
why can't i stand being myself?

everyday i wake up
just wishing that i hadn't
one thing could change all this
one thing could make this right

my razor
my friend
my only escape
my destiny

parents that don't care
scars that won't heal
and a heart not longing for this empty world

people can insult me
so people do insult me
if i saw me walking down the street
i would tease and laugh
and thank god i wasn't her

but looking in a mirror,
that's exactly who i am
a lonely girl
just too tired of this cruel world

so as i find my razor
i cut away at all my fears
i release my pain
create new scars

crying crimson tears
and bleeding morbid fears
i stand upon my desk
jump forward
forward into the rope that awaits my happy ending
my fairy tale

(C) Lucy Green

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