Heart And Mind Of A Broken Teenager

I want to live
but still i want to die
I'm an honest guy
but I'm living a lie
I have loads of friends
but i am on my own
Everybody's here
but still, i am alone

This is my heart
I'm speaking my mind
I'm falling apart
It's like I'm one of a kind

Everybody hates me
but many says I'm nice
I am a real ass hole
but still I'm very kind
I am very bored
but I've got stuff to do
Outside i am bright yellow
but deep inside i am dark blue

This is my heart
I'm speaking my mind
I'm falling apart
It's like I'm one of a kind
I still don't feel better
but i don't feel bad
I'm still unhappy
but i am not sad

And now i am laughing
but my tears wont stop falling
No one is noticing me
but my name they keep calling

I've shown you my heart
I spoke my mind
I'm torn apart, i only see darkness
I feel blind....