I wish it was all ok

Maybe this is my end
I'm not suppose to live on
I'm living proof that no one can get better
I wish i could smile and pretend that everything is OK
but it's not my dads gone now
but the nightmares don't stop
Every time i close my eyes i see u raging to wards me fist up
tears begin to role down my cheek
i grab a razor
i dig in blood starts to flow my pain seems to just disappear
I have focused in on my pain and the cuts on my wrist
maybe this time i can do it and not worry about you finding me
just Lock myself away like i always do
I wish i could stay
just tell me everything will be ok
I can't stop the depression
i have givin up its so hard to do

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