I want

When I’m with you,
I lose myself.
When I look at you,
I don’t know what to say.
When I look into those beautiful baby blue eyes,
I don’t know if I should tell you exactly what I feel.
So that’s why I’m writing this,
I’m afraid to tell you how I feel.
Today’s 4th of July,
And I don’t want to lie.
I want to tell the truth.
When the firecrackers are going off,
I whisper in your ear,
“I love you”
You look at me and I feel your lips against mine.
You ask me,
“What took so long?”
That was 4 years ago.
Now we are broken up and I have his children.
He deigns everything…
He said that I slept around,
And that they weren’t his.
But he took my virginity.
I don’t know what to do.
I want to die.
But I continue to live…