Dark Crimson Red****

Have you ever wondered
why this world can be so cruel
have you ever wondered
why nothing ever goes your way
have you ever wondered
why your picked the last for sport
have you ever wondered
why you are always treated this way

this is on my mind
absolutely all the time
always being put down
self esteem, depleting underground

so now it's just me
but i too am falling fast
you see me now
but you wont soon

i can't take this stress anymore
i can't take another insult
and my self esteem couldn't plunge any lower
theres so much to live for
but none of it is good
theres better things to die for
and die for it, i would!

this isn't suicide
i didn't do this to myself
it's your insults and beatings
that made me get this low
every comment you have made
is another scar upon my wrist

dripping with crimson blood at night
thats the only way i can sleep
never wondered why I'm like this
because i already know
all you heartless people
just shrug me off, and say "so"

so here I am
my final words
to all you people that made this work
I'm going now
and i won't be back

but every time you take a sip
of red wine from your fancy glass
just remember this

red wine, the color of crimson
crimson the color of blood
blood so deeply cut
dark crimson,
the color of your heart

while your heart is dying
my heart has been set free
so instead of being angry with you
I'm saying a silent 'thank you'
for you are the one's that let my soul fly!!!

(C) Lucy Green

*i know its a bit weird but i thought it was all right, thanks for reading my poem and i hope you understand it, *MWAH* love Always
*Lucy**