Still Smiling

I feel as if I'm going to explode,
because i cant let go of these tears.
I'm scared they'll never come out.
i don't want to live a life full of fear.

i don't understand why i just cant cry.
it really hurts.
i don't want to hurt anymore.
if i don't let go soon, I'm going to die!

I'm still siting here smiling,
like nothings wrong.
i hear the voices behind my back.
it wasn't supposed to last this long.

i need someone to come take me away,
before i decide to runaway on my own.
i just need to leave for a little while.
because when I'm here i feel so alone.