If this is the way it has to be

I've almost lost her
I messed up again
My body's shaking
I'm in so much pain

I scream her name
I cut my arm
This bitter circle
Of self harm

I go to sleep
Thoughts in my head
Pills, ropes, blades
I just long to be dead

Nothing will change
This is really me
I need to escape
I need to be free

I'm hurting us both
I cant stop the pain
I need to get out now
I'll take the pills again

This is the last time now
This is really it
I'm sorry i left you
But life is just sh!t