Sweet and sour

*I don\'t mind what you rate this, this is only for a couple of people. If you give it a 1.0 or don\'t vote at all I won\'t mind... :D... Take care, Elle x*

Last night you sent me a message,
It was the sweetest message I ever read,
From then I couldn\'t concentrate,
It was the only thing in my head.

I dreamt of you that night,
The last time I saw your face,
Where we were sitting, Just in silence,
Alone in that peaceful place.

You told me that you\'d miss me,
And all I said was I\'ll miss you too,
And then when I left the holiday,
I thought I\'d forget you.

When I wake up I think back,
Realising after 8 months I never did,
And how you haven\'t run away from me,
My dark side I never hid.

You knew about my crying,
About all the times I hated life,
And you knew about how I loved your words,
When you said \'I\'ll pull you out this strife\'.

You\'re the one person I believed in,
I never doubted what you said,
I tried each piece of advice you told me,
I followed you wherever you lead.

As I got changed for school,
Last night kept replaying over and over again,
And for once my happiness protected me,
As I walked to school in the rain.

When I got there I was soaking,
My friend\'s looked so shocked,
My hair was all a mess,
But I didn\'t mind it looking damp and knot-locked.

For once I didn\'t flinch,
At all the judging stares,
For once I didn\'t try to hide,
Instead just thought \'who cares\'.

For once I didn\'t hide my brace,
And keep my mouth shut when I tried to grin,
Instead I let them flash in the sun,
That\'s when I felt the heart break deep under my skin.

You told my friend you didn\'t love me,
And in fact you never would,
And unbelieveably I seemed to be fine with it,
I didn\'t cry, But I felt I should.

I\'d loved you for all this time,
Then it stopped in the drop of a hat,
I never thought that would happen,
Especially not like that.

Then you said you did love me,
And you lied because your mum was there,
I related that to how I felt,
And how I wouldn\'t care.

I used to be proud to love you,
And care for you so strong,
I thought you were my best friend,
I was fooled all along.

That keeps replaying,
I love you, I don\'t, I do,
But since I didn\'t cry,
I don\'t know whether I love you.

I got on the phone to my best friend,
Her comforting voice was what made me cry,
She told me to tell her all about it,
Then 5 minutes, 10, an hour went by.

At the end of it she asked,
\'Do you love him?\', I didn\'t know,
So she said, \'Ok keep smiling,
I hate it when you\'re low.\'

When the phone buzzed and I was alone,
I thought about what she said,
I thought about it all evening,
Till I clambered into my bed.

I looked back over the drama in the last two days,
My thoughts went on for about an hour,
I wondered how things could change so quick,
From sickly sweet to unbearable sour.

After I turned the light off I shut my eyes, Planned not to peep,
Then your face came into my head and I whispered good night,
Then I tried to forget you and go to sleep.

©Elle

*It\'s not great and I don\'t think i got the point across. Bye Brook...*