Trapped Heart

Thinking back
To the tears Ive shed
The tears I let
Roll down

All the screams
Inside my head
No one heard
Cause nothing I ever said

In arms length
I kept my heart
Thinking I'm fearing
Nothing else but pain

But as one by one
I let them go
It goes to show
I just kept letting go

Once I fall
Deep in their charm
I sit up and pretend
Its all about to end

As paranoia hits
The center of my soul
It sends a trigger to my head
Feeding the screams no one can hear

Pushing you away
As your trying to get closer
Pulling away the key to my heart
As you grab further

The moment you get the key
I run as far as I can
Saying its over
That you wouldn't understand

There was one
That had my heart
He was the first, the start
To the road of chances

A first tear
A first scream
A lasting distress
A last wish

But a long ago broken heart
Cant result in this
Such a long forgotten past
Cant explain the fear

The fear of rejection
Of the sorrow I hide
Of the truth behind my eyes
And the lies behind yours

Every time Mr. right comes along
I sink deep into his smile
Then out of no where
I start crawling back

I'm starting to see it clearly
And the more it starts to hurt
Every smile I push away
Every dream I pull apart

The reason still lies
As an unsolved mystery
Where do I go from here
How do I let go of this key

I keep along with me
The fire burning in my heart
Yearning for someone to let it out
Knowing its time to forget about

Life's about risks as I always hear
But the chances I get
I make fade away
And then cry about it the next day

Need a voice to say
I can let it be
Need a hand
To hold me in my place

Need a smile
To make me know its OK
Need eyes to look into my own
Let the fire out burning within

Gently take the key from my hand
Unlock the mystery I hold
Letting the warmth of my awakened heart
Rein within me

Just need someone
To set my heart free