Natural Let Go

When I try to find the words
I just cant explain
Because I cant see myself
Playing the game that I play

There you may be
Telling me everything I want to hear
Making the butterflies flutter
Deep within me

I lay in the midst of the night
Chained to happiness
And the tingle in my heart
With a smile that keeps growing within tonight

When the time comes
To exchange goodbyes
The words don't flow
Right out of my mouth

Throughout the day
All that goes threw my head
Is your voice, your face
And the words you nearly recited to me

An each time I imagine
Your silhouette with mine
The doubt takes over my mind
The fit of fear takes over my heart

I go on day to night
Putting up a fight with my heart
As it screams to me
Just let go

As each night the smile grows
The goodbyes farther away
And the night doesn't seem so dark
The fear is flowing through me

At last I've noticed
The edge to my game
I'm like a curse for a heart
You cant tell when it starts

I fall for you
And gently let you fall for me
Let it grow softly
Begin the story in the sky

When things finally escalate
Which should make me be
Head over heals
As you would hold me

I shiver in the thought
Of being hurt again
I cringe in the fear
Of being lied to again

I begin to think
It was all wrong to begin with
Question my heart
Question myself

As I slowly pull away
Keeping you at arms length
And making up excuses
To keep you holding on

But yet I never let you go
For that I fear even more
But as I push beyond extent
You finally give up the game

There I sit in regret
Writing words to fill
The end of the story
And look upon the stars at night

Listen to the songs you sung to me
Listen to rain perform a symphony
Hold the moonlight on my pillow
And guide my dream away from you

Why I pull away
Stays as a mystery
Why I try to keep you there
Still is unsolved

Then once your gone
And why the tears roll down
Leaves me puzzled
In light despair

I need someone to notice the fault
I pretend to not hear in my heart
For someone to hold me close
Never let me go

Tell me they wont hurt me
That theres nothing to fear
That my heart will stay together
And the tears will stay dry

To look me in the eyes
And begin their own story
And when I push as hard as I might
To pull their way back

Too much to ask
Its obvious to see
Just need to find a reason
For why I let this way be

I cant keep falling
Then crawling away
And sitting there another day
Convincing myself

I should have never let them go...