It wasn't my fault!!!!

How is this me
I really don’t know
Its like i am part of somebody else
No one cares
Or looks back just twice
I really don't care
What they have to say
he has hit me before
But he doesn't care
Such a rough day at school
And the same yes at home
I never would have thought,
How far i would have to go
To get just me back
All in one go
I have cleaned and cleaned more
But nothing's enough
I need some fun
But no not no more
I must clean some more
He doesn't understand the true side of the story
He cant let me be
Or even let me tidy
"do everything else or I'll beat you again!"
he doesnt know the story
so who is he to judge
but no, he doesn't have to
it was all my fault anyway,
sure he raped me, and beat me to the ground but its my fault for dressing up and going into town
sure he kept hitting the door and yelling at me
but it was my fault for locking it
and why wouldn't it be!
By the way, it's me, Lucy
Does that answer your questions
Hey god, do u really exist?
I believe when i can.
Not when i want!

(C) Lucy Green

*I do believe in god, but sometimes i wish he were a little nicer, please rate and comment on my poems*