You're always here

This poem is dedicated to my dead grandma who is basically still my favorite person in the world...i miss her tons and would love if you could just read this and maybe tell me what you think of it...

I remember it clearly
the day i got that call
i was told you were sick
and thats when i started to fall
tears took over my eyes
and i wanted to go into disguise
you were the only one
who ever really understood me
you were the only one who i always wanted to see
i remember walking into the hospital
told you were in room 402
i walked in
and you were on life support
and while the rest of the family
said they were going to court
to see who was going to get what
i sat down beside you and held your hands and cried
it was that minute you opened your eyes
you lipped i love you to me
and that was the minute you died
what leukemia did to you
its hurts me the most
its all true
our family misses you
but nobody misses you as much as me
every night i remember you
and i try not to cry
and i wish i was the one who had to die
i cant believe your actually gone
even though its been so long
i hope you can hear me now
i hope you don't think to bad of me
i want to make you proud
and you are my inspiration
i wanted you to know
that you give me my glow
you're still here
i feel you in me
and when i cry
your the only face i see
i wish you would wake up
or you could come down and take me up
I miss you so much every minute
this is making me stronger
but at the same time weaker
sometimes i feel i cant go on
sometimes i feel i have to
Manee, you are my favorite Granny
I will see you soon enough again
until then...you stay in my thoughts