Will and Cannot Kill...myself

I think that this would hurt my mom so bad,
my dad would be so upset,
my little sister wouldn't have a big sister any more,
they wouldn't be able to have me in their lives,
I would hurt so many people,
if I killed myself.
I would not only be hurting others but myself included.
I CAN'T kill myself because I am too strong to take the easy way out,
too good to end up that that,
I have to live my life my way.
Will and cannot kill . . . myself!