Only One

Hearts change as do attitudes,
All this pain is relentless I don't know How to make it through.
Subjects changes from the heart,
This longing pain is tearing me apart.

I love him but he doesn't love me,
No idea why I hold on waiting for something that can never be.
Faith and love changed many months ago,
But I still hold on and cant let it go.

Loving and never leaving,
Hoping and forever cheating.
Hopes of forgotten reality,
Through his eyes he will never see.

He believes his pain is all there is,
I hold so much anger inside these bottled fists.
Wishing I could take this life away,
Knowing its not the answer for which I need to stay.

He once said he loved me and that he cared,
But of him is what I'm truly scared.
He causes pain and hurt and doesn't mean to,
Its like he is a time bomb exploding waiting to bust right through.

Through the surface to cause a life that no-one wants,
A life in which he will forever taunt.
He broke the surface and did this to me,
I wish in all this my point would be heard and seen.

Stupidity of the past will never again return,
My heart will never again be torn and burned.
Now Not trusting hardly anyone,
For all this you can blame only one.