I can't change

I'm lost in thought,
I'm not sure why.
my mind is racing,
I'm trying to figure it all out.

There so much i want to say,
I don't know how.
The words are right there,
They just won't come out.

I had many dreams,
they faded away.
Will they come back?
i will never know.

I sit here everyday,
staring into space.
wondering what could have been,
I guess thats something i can't change.

I get so confused,
wondering what should I do.
Will I ever figure it out?
I have no clue.

They say things happen for a reason,
thats not good enough for me.
I want the answers,
to be put right there in front of me.

All this stuff that is on my mind,
Will it ever go away?
I don't know why every thing is so difficult,
It's all just apart of life they say.

I have a heart,
It loves in so many ways.
It gets torn apart and broken so much,
Yet I still find ways to get over it and forgive.

Life can be complicated,
It's something I can't take.
I want to make it easier,
what does it take?

Every thing I do,
someone or everyone has to question.
Why do i have to explain,
it's my life this is what I do.

If you can't love me for me,
why even try?
I come in so many shapes and forms,
Thats not gonna change.

Except me for who i am,
because i was made this way.
I can't change who I am,
I ain't sorry for who i am today.

I have so much on my mind,
Some things just can't be erased.
This is just who I am,
This is what I can't change...