(chorus)
>This crazy life I lead has gone to hell and come back again
To try and renew itself in the light This thing that I don't understand Has got me wandering the land Trying to find the answer to life.
>Pain, suffering, crying, wishing to die
Something had to turn me around
Many nights I sit at home with a knife on my skin,
Watching the blood drip down like a flowing river in a holy land
>Nothing could stop me
I warned all not to try
I felt close to god
Like a rush from a drug
Its a high
>One night he left me
Said I wasn't worthy of his love anymore
They all abandoned me
I wanted to go away
So I took the knife in hand
Prayed for lots of pain
>An unfufilled suicide
Next week I cried
Tears of joy
To be alive
I still know people who life in hell and I tell them-careful friend and do this favor,
Tell the devil I miss the rush
I miss the heat
But I cant return yet
Tell him I'm sorry and
Tell hell to have a good time!
>But...(chorus)
