Painless

I've Become so painless
thinking about what Ive heard
theres no more room for me
it seems that people just cant understand me
i try my best to be like them
try my best to please
but now i am not sure who i am Really trying to please
the pain was so deep
yet now...its thinning out
i cant feel anything no more
no cuts or words
I'm starting to get more and more upset
thinking why is it me
i think back to when i was 8
the shortest kid in class Ive always been
shorter then everyone else
its not that I'm a midget
or vertically challenged
I'm just growing slower the normal
it is not fair no more
to hear these things about me.
...hey it is doorknob hahaha it isn't funny no more
All my pain is vanishing and filling up with rage
i went too my room tried to go to sleep but i couldn't that night
i closed my eyes but the lights were still on
i started a bath and filled it up but i didn't get in
i found a razor on the tub and cut my wrists
i finally felt the pain
as everything escaped
i fell to the floor and died that day because of things i could not help
its not my fault I'm dead...

hey I'm really down and i have been for three weeks but i hope ill get over it soon:(