Harmless Marks

It started off harmless just a little cut
It started when I was called names like a little s.lut
It was just a way of showing I agreed
I knew it wasn't good and not what I need
I stopped for awhile but thought about it a lot
I knew it was wrong it wasn't what I was taught
So a month went by without a scratch
I started to think the scars aren't for me its just not my match
But the pressure started building and getting hard to bare
A couple guys broke my heart but now it was beginning to tare
It wasn't just the boys it was also my grades
Used to be straight A's now I don't have those days
It wasn't just school it was also my looks
I used to be beautiful now I just hide behind my books
It wasn't just my appearance it was also my dad
I haven't seen him in 5 months thats pretty sad
I started to lose it and I didn't know what to do
So I made one more cut and made sure no one knew
Then I remembered how good it felt and made a couple more
Before it got any worse I got up and shut the door
A couple of days went by and before you knew
My arm was covered in marks cause my pain just grew
I don't know why or how it got this bad
But in awhile its the best feeling I have had