Its only because of them

Everyday seems to get harder and harder
making my life not worth living at all
i cant stand the pressure
for me its hard to fall

i cant stand life anymore
i try harder and harder everyday
to make my parents see
why i make them pay

if my cutting isn't enough
and me not eating at all
maybe they will hear
me puking in the stall

yet the go right over that
they don't care
they just yell at me more
today life i cant bare

so i sit and burn my way
so they will see the hurt I'm in
but again they ignore my signs
as i burn away the skin

as my throat becomes tense
and i cant stand the taste
they don't hear my coughing
like life's all a waste

as i try more and more each day
i want my boring self to leave this earth
no one really cares
not a dime I'm worth

i take my chances
and cut even more
no one really knows me
as they've told me before

i make my way to hells path
as the devil takes me in
i want a way out of life
as my body grows thin

they cant see my pain
they don't know i exist
i hate it that i don't tell the real me
as i give my leg a twist