Do I Hate You?

I try to change,
For you..
Tears coursing down my face,
For you.

I don't put you in a box,
Label you like all the rest,
Now you're putting me through a test,
I hate this, do I hate you?

I know this might not be about me,
Family dying,
Secret crying,
Did you even know her?

I hate this, do I hate you?
Why should I deal,
Why do I have to care,
When theres no one there to care for?

I accepted you,
You rejected me,
Do you hate me?
Do I care?
I do, to much.

You don't care,
Forget her,
You think,
Well, I'm thinking and I'm breathing,
I'm trying to live...

Can't breathe,
Suffocating on my own kindness,
Feeling insecure,
Searching for the cure.

Hate being so uncertain,
But now I'm certain,
I think I do,
I think I hate you.

©Megan Crouse
A/N: Very spur of the moment. To the person this is about: If you read this, I hope you understand me.