Hurtful love

Why is it the people?
Who tell me they love me
Are the people I seem to run away from

Why does it seem like
I get myself in relationships
That I feel like I am trapped
And there is no way out
Without hurting

Why does it seem like
I am always saying I love you
To the wrong him

Why does it seem like
I can always find someone better
No matter how good
The relationship I am in

The boy that I seem to want
Always wants me
And I am so stupid
I never seem to wait

So once again
I will hurt myself
For the welfare
Of someone else

Because I don’t want to hurt him
But I want to be wit someone new
What should I say?
What should I do?