I can't express myself with my voice
when i try
my mouth turns dry
I express the way I feel on paper
poetry is my only savior
it keeps me from becoming confused
I wish you could comprehend
even I don't understand
the way i feel all I know is that
I am jealous
i get suspicious
every time you are with another one
every time you show her affection
I get an infection
in my heart
and I fall apart at the seams
my hair gets messy
I look miserable and pissy
I want to go away
cause I'm not OK
i want to hide in the darkness
never to be found
I'll hide underground
like a prairie hound
hiding from the sun
do you understand now?
i can't say it another way
I'm not OK
I love you
but I can't if you don't
now i really do
feel like another leaf on the tree
a little star in the sky
let me go now if this is really the end
so I finally have a reason to cry
goodbye will be my last words
i will say with love
after that it will just like before
just friends
i hope you comprehend
what I'm trying to say
I'm not OK
I wish you would made me feel
like you did at first
we used to kiss
like it was the last wonderful bliss
in the world
please make me feel special
i feel like an old rag no one wants to use
my heart is cold and suffocating
because i feel so broken and crying
myself to sleep
i hope this touches you deep
in your heart and mind
please comprehend
I'm not OK
