I feel

When I feel your hands touch my skin,
my whole body quivers in fear,
when I feel you embrace me,
I painfully hold back my tears ,
when I feel your lips against mine,
I can no longer breathe,
when I feel your love,
my heart begins to ache,
as if your love was a poisoned knife
stuck through my heart,
the poison slowly and painfully deteriorates my soul,
for there is no cure,
because I won't let him go,
I can't breathe,
I can't live,
I can't love,
I can't feel