Please understand Mom

Things are not
Normal here
Inside my brain
I think I’m going insane

Push me in depression
By hitting me
And calling me names
Watch me
Wash away my pain

My eyes are dead
As well as my heart
That’s stuck with
All the lies you shown

You always say you love me
You always say you care
You say you’ll never leave my side
But you always seem to disappear

You ask me what’s wrong
When you see my cry
You don’t understand
Why I push you aside

You know I love you
You know I try my best
To impress you

But you accept the very best
And when I can’t do it
You smack me to the floor

What kind of mother are you?
The one I’m supposed to adore?
The one who took my life away
With the cold words you use to say

The love you show me
Is dark and furious
Sounded by all sorts of evil

So mom because you tried
To kill me for so many years
By cutting me with those words
And hitting me till I’m black and blue

I’ll do you a favor
And get my life over with
With your own razor blade

I love you mom
And this is what I wish I could do
But for all the others
That care for me
I have to stay here
And I’ll know you be sorry
If you ever read this
I wish you could learn
To Love and treat me better
Than thinking I’m a stupid Idiot
I know you never mean
To hurt me like this
But please think about all this
And tell me you’ll try
To treat me better

This is to my mom, I know I won’t give it to her, I use to cut a lot, and my mom was really scared for me, so I wish she could look what she was doing instead of blaming it on someone or something else, but anyways please rate and comment