Because I'm Tired

I'm tired,
This pain has gone,
Sadness sinks in,
My brain wired,
On all these drugs,
My friend says I sin,
And my other says I'm admired,
All those hugs,
They never meant nothing,
Not from you anyway,
So I try to open,
This body which was hired,
Tortured and destroyed.
All those mugs,
With the alcohol,
Make my day,
Because I'm tired,
Your feelings deployed,
They leave me empty,
It's all taking its toll,
Because it isn't my way,
I write this drunk,
Drunk on the hatred,
They can't see,
What this has done,
And I them things to pay,
Why am I blinded?,
Everytime I open my eyes,
It happens to me,
Please don't take my sun,
But every day,
I find myself binded,
To others evil attention,
In every way,
They've acquired,
Everything they need,
Because I'm tired.