Hurting

I see another knife
attack my soul
i see another punch
attack my dignity

i see another chunk
come out my throat
i see another pill
go in my mouth

i see another bloody arm
just trying to make them care
i see anther bloody lip
knowing they never will

i see my teeth
slowly rot away
i see my life
slowly slip away

i hate myself
and others hate me
i want me dead
and so do they

I've turned into
a person i never wanted to be
they've seen me change
and they don't like it at all

i used to have so many friends
and i used to get my way
one night changed everything for me
and one by one all my friends leave

I'm hoping next year
my high school year
will bring a new light
into my darkened soul

to bring more friends
so i will forever forget my past
to leave it open
so no one can tell

as the last punch is thrown
and me i coma for a day
as i get home from hell
i take the knife

i hurt myself again
forever changing my soul
i attack my skin
and faint from all the blood lost

i record it in my agenda
in my blood i write:
till my soul is reborn i forever will cut deep
i pass out not remembering a thing

i make another promise
to never cut again
it gets to hard
so i try other things

hoping thats someday
i will forever change
making sure that my mind
will forget everything that has happened