Giving up on myself

I used to have conviction before I knew this
Once in a place far back in time, rewind the hours
A smiling girl, I used to be, I laughed and sung
Ran around playing in the colourful flowers

I used to laugh I used to dance, once I was happy
A life I lived before I met this, always been alone
So scared of love, with burns so deep within me
Want to hold you, but you cant see who I am on my own

Giving up on the help, and unable to work
Where I can be alone, before I leave you
Listen to the songs, and let the tears drown me
I have no life to live, nothing better to do

Remind me of her, because shes going to leave me
Trying to play along with these laughs and tears
With the cold, lonely children singina along
So they can truly voice there only fears...