Black tears, black heart

Watching the blade,
Push through my skin,
Leaving its mark
Ever so thin.

Can't catch my breath,
Emotions wear thin.
Why am I doing this
unforgiveable sin.

I stoop to my knees,
slowly let go.
Why have I done this
I honestly don't know.

I try think of reasons,
try justify my ways,
Re-ocurring thoughts,
where here I lay.

There in the mirror,
my tear-stained face.
Alone in the world,
It isn't my place.

I look up at the sky,
wait for a sign.
Something to tell me
Yes, he'll be mine.
A sign to tell me
it's all in my mind.
A sign to tell me
just give it time.

Once more I stand,
on my unstable feet,
Cradle my hand
from this unwanted treat.

Let it all go.
Clear your head.
uncontrollably shaking
as you lay down to bed.

This is where it ends
As I lay down to sleep.
For the day is over,
and I must cease to weep.

I enter something new
as I close my eyes.
A place that is different.
A place with no lies.

I laugh hysterically
but I don't know why.
I open my eyes,
open them wide,
Open my eyes..
till once more i cry.